Goodbye 2018

As I close out 2018, I have been doing a lot of thinking with everything that has gone on during this crazy year.

In the last 13 months I have lost 2 of my best friends.

Monchy, was my best friend as a teen, he introduced me to a church where I ended up spending most of my teen years at. We somehow lost touch over the years & when we reconnected things weren’t ever the same, but no matter what he had a special place in my heart, so to find out about his passing, was a shock & I always think about how I regret not being able to say good bye because we weren’t in talking terms.

& Carol, where do I start? My best friend of 22 yrs. We met in 9^th grade at Sunset High. This girl was my ride or die. The things we went through, no friendship should have endured, yet we did & although we wasted stupid time fighting & not talking to each other for months at a time, we ALWAYS found our way back to each other. & this last fight was no different. We were texting each other via facebook every once in a while, but not like it used to be. In August, after speaking with a psychic, she mentioned something about someone with an autoimmune disease & after that session, I reached out to Carol & told her all about what happened & that was the beginning of the end. This chick & I married best friends. How many people can say that?

Although she was sick for 6-7 years, I didn’t think she would go like this, so soon. When I got the news, I was numb. I was in shock. The realization that my BEST FRIEND of 22 yrs is gone wouldn’t dawn on me.

Over the last 2.5 weeks, I have thought so much about how short our lives truly are. She was 36 years old! She has a 10 yr old daughter. My life hasn’t been the same since & Its time for me to “squash
the beef” with many in my life. I don’t expect you to become my friend or family member again. But I want you to know that I forgive you. I am sorry for whatever I did to screw up the relationship we once had. In some relationships, I don’t know where I fucked up, but in others I know damn well I didn’t do anything to deserve your shitty attitude. I just want you to know that life is too short to be mad, you or I could go tomorrow & we will always have some sort of regret with the other. Some sort of words that were left unsaid, & if that’s not how you feel then, you definitely didn’t & don’t deserve to be in my life, because that’s not the type of person or soul I want in my life & I really hope we never meet again.

I have family members, best friends, business partners & friends who became family on this list, & I have reached out to every single one of you many times over the years to fix things, but many haven’t even given me the time of day… Well, this is the last chapter in this book & Im closing it, if you would like to join me for my next journey, some of you are welcome, just say hello, trust me, itll be nice to hear from some of you, for the rest of you, thank you for coming into my life & teaching me a lesson or two. I hope you don’t have to lose someone extremely close to you anytime soon for you to realize how precious life truly is & know who is truly worth it to be taking this crazy journey called life with you.

A personal msg to those I believe will be passing by:

D. DValle- You & I know how you feel about me, we recently had a “chit chat” but we both know who massively screwed up this friendship & you are right, Karma isn’t very fun, is it? Our chapter is over, & it will always be over, but I want you to know that I have been over that drama a long time ago, what I always wanted to know is where did things go wrong during Christmas of 07 when the friendship just ended?

M.Cristina B.- There is no forgiving a family member who is as cold as you’ve been most of my life. I forgive you, but I don’t want you back in my life, I just hope you don’t lose the one person you chose over me & think itll be ok to come back… You have a lot of soul searching to do. May God bless you.

R.Marie A. – The one person I truly thought wouldn’t have screwed me over the way you did. But the things you said about me when it was all over confirmed that you are just as cold as everyone else. I hope Karma doesn’t come knocking on your door anytime soon. You are someone I would love back in my life, but until you realize where things went wrong, itll never happen.

E.Ann S.- Where do I start with you? Ive been trying to get you back in my life for how long? Your excuse was… we grew apart! You truly believe that? The one person I need in my life more than anything right now would be you, but you seem deader than Carol truly is. I love you, & I miss you every single freakin day, hope you don’t regret letting me go.

C.Cerquiera L.M.- You? I got no words for you. You deserve the karma that’s heading your way.

V. Manuel B.- It hurts that things ended, not only on my end but on your boys end. We think of you often, we talk about you guys often & wonder about the babies, wish egos would diminish & we can fix things. But til then… God Bless ya!

G. Alexis R. Moura- I cant believe it took for Carol to die to have you msg me out of the blue. I still wonder wtf happened how many years ago that you just dropped me as a friend when the night before you were my best friend & we were having the time of our life when it all ended. Carol has told me how much you’ve grown & Im proud of you. Hope one day we could pick up where we dropped off. Til then, God bless you & those beautiful kids.

Happy New year to everyone. Thanks for reading.

I’m walking into 2019 with a clear heart and mind.

If you owe me, don’t worry about it – you’re welcome.

If you wronged me, it’s all good – lesson learned.

If you’re angry with me, you’ve won, congratulations.

If we aren’t speaking, it’s cool..I wish you well. 

If you feel I wronged you, I apologize.

If you’re waiting on me to fail, don’t hold your breath…you have a long wait!

I’ve already overcome more than you can imagine. 

Focus on making your life better for you & your family and watch how doors open. 

Life is too short for all the pent up anger, holding grudges and extra pain. 

Reach out to me if you’d care to talk about it and if not, I tried.

Here’s to 2019!

Full of Love, Health, Positivity, & a season of Forgiveness & Happiness!

#WheresTheLove

2015- 2016 has been a crazy year, with this Presidential election this year & the man as the Republican nominee spewing hate & being a bully every time he opens his mouth, this country is going to shit.



Police brutality against Black people doesnt stop. Its time it stops. How many lives need to be lost for things to change? Who's child needs to die so people wake up & say "Oh shit this needs to change?"



Does it have to get to the point? It's sad that Black people walk out in the street daily scared for their lives.



If Trump becomes president of this country, Im scared what this country is going to become, bc the racism is getting worse & worse, the hate we see online scares many & I know many have said theyd move out of the US, psss.. I probably would too. For now, lets watch this video & pray for our country... & remember Where is the love??!!

This is me, take it or leave it.

I'm tired... ive been tired of being this nice girl all my life & what has it gotten me, nothing except people walking all over me. Yes Ive turned into a bitch over the years bc life has done that to me... dont complain. When i love, i love too hard & I at times get disappointed. IF YOU treat me like shit or snap an attitude with me for no reason, I lose all respect for you & the cold hearted Aquarius side of me comes out. Some of you still dont understand me, but thats bc you dont make the effort to know what ive gone through... Til then, I will be that bitch you see, & I have no regrets. People tell me to change, but change for what & to who? When I was that other person, I was taken advantage of.

No matter what I'm different than most. Some understand me & most don't. If you dont, you arent forced to be in my life. Buh Felicia!  This world is filled with evil & people don't give a fuck anymore... social media is filled with cowards who hide behind a computer screen to bully others, we have a presidential candidate who is bullying people non stop & hes at the top of his game... what kind of people are actually voting for him?!

Life is just getting more & more fucked up & people just don't care... Im not here to satisfy anyone except myself, & if giving you a piece of my mind is being a bitch, then so be it!!!

Happy 17th, My Old Man!

I asked you for 15 years, & you've given me 17. 

You've been the most amazing dog I've ever known. 

You have gone through so much, & you always come out stronger than before. I dont know how you keep on going, but I give thanks to the Lord everyday you are still here. 

This past year we have seen you really become a Senior, officially going blind & with only 20% hearing, I have learned to have patience, but I wouldnt trade it for the world. 

You are my Angel & I will NEVER be ready for the day God asks you to cross the bridge, but for now, we celebrate your amazing 17 yr birthday. 

Happy Birthday Sly. 

Arancibia Yorkie Family Tree

As my Yorkie family grows, & the girls from Febz litter are with their forever home, I thought I would do a family tree so everyone knows who is who! I will start from the youngest to the oldest...

These of course are the 7 puppies... 6 girls & 1 boy

This is Momma Febz {February Rose}

& This is their Daddy- Ewok

Febz has 3 siblings... 1 sister & 2 Brothers which would be the puppies Aunt & Uncles

Born February 19th, 2011

Born 1st was ElleJai aka Lea Jade-

Then born 2nd was T.J.aka- Truper Jr

Febz was born 3rd, & then we have Chunky Monkey born last-

Yalee was pregnant with a 5th baby but he/she died inside of her.

Next comes Febz & her siblings Mom- Yalee Eve

Born December 27th, 2007

I dont have a picture of their dad. Sorry!

Yalee was the ONLY girl from her litter of 3. 

Finally Yalee's Mom is Lulu (on our left). I didnt own her, I owned Scoobie which I stud to Lulu's family

&& Finally the little boy that made this all happen is Mr Scoobie aka- Magnum Hunter

DOB: August 10, 2003

Actually I think this was an awesome idea that has been long over due. I hope all questions have been answered & we now know who is who! :)

Enjoy. 

Hello Dear Friend

I'm glad you stopped by. I have some things I need to get off my chest. It's nearing Christmas & I can't stop thinking about you. 

I've heard the song I've dedicated to you about half a dozen times in the last month & somehow you keep coming into my dreams a lot lately. 

Everytime I dream of you it affects my mood & my day. A part of me wants to think you are dead so I have that to lean on & why I can't just reach out to you but my reality knows that's not true. That you are well, very much alive & taking care of those 2 boys of yours. 

I told Danny the other day how I feel empty inside. I have no desire for anything in life, it's like life doesn't mean anything to me without you in it. I just don't care about anything anymore. 

I told him that if I had you back in my life I would be happy again. I would feel for something, I would give a shit. But it won't happen, would it?! 

Where did we go wrong?!? How did it get this bad?! I only have one answer & something tells me someone else made that decision for us & we know who it is. 

I'm so depressed most days that I truly don't care for anything, I cry myself to sleep some nights just wishing we were right back to where we were 10 yrs ago. 

You are my rock. You are my sanity. Your my little sister that I miss so much! I feel like in being tortured. How can a human being torture another this way?! 

I don't think you understand how much I miss you & how much I need you! I'm just not the same without you. I don't care for life. I just don't care for much really. How can someone make such an impact in someone's life?!? Then just walk away & say we grew apart! I don't understand. 

I love you dearly. I look forward to the day I hear something from you.. Even a simple hello!

I miss you my Leli! I miss you way too much! Remember we made a promise we would never let someone get in the middle of our friendship, but I guess you allowed that to happen. I'm sorry for it all! 

God bless you & Merry Christmas. May Gid bless those beautiful boys you have. And remember I am ALWAYS thinking of you. I will always love you. I don't care if it takes another 9-10 yrs... I'll still be here waiting to hear from you!! 

I love you!

So There's this guy, & he kinda has my Heart...

There is this man in my life... &, well hes pretty special. He has my heart & I dont think anyone can compare... this man has given me 13 amazing years...

I didnt choose him, he def chose me. I wasnt interested in finding a new love, no new man to capture my heart, I had just lost a love & was surprised when my mom introduced me to him. When I came to the house I thought it was Chris playing games with me with the noise... as she opened the door, I did ask what she thought she was doing with this new man in the house.

She said he was introduced to her a couple days earlier & was letting him stay at the house til further notice. 

I was introduced to Sly... a little tiny 3lb Yorkie. He was so tiny. 

I wasnt sure about him but he was sure about me, he was all about spending all his time with me, in my room & sleeping with me in the morning. 

I def fell in love & over time I was crazy in love... there was just something about him, there was this love from a dog I hadnt had in a long time. 

When I got married all I wanted was to have this man by my side... O yeah... I prayed to have him with me everyday but it was best for him to stay with my dad, until my dad fell ill & was hospitalized. Him & Annie came to live with me...

He's always had minor health issues but I have always been told hes a very healthy boy. His blood work always comes back like if hes a 3 yr old dog. With flying colors. 

Today this amazing man turns what we believe is 15 Yrs old. Because he was found & we dont know where he came from, the vet always assumed he was about 2 yrs old... & weve had him for 13 yrs as of today & we celebrate his bday on this day. He has been my longest living dog & still has a great spirit in him. I usually tell people that he's immortal bc I just cant believe what great health he's in. 

I am happiest with him by my side. He is my joy & love... no man comes before him. Except one special man, & he knows who he is. I am glad to have another year with him, a couple years back, I always prayed to God & asked him to give me 15 yrs... well that time is here & I hope he can give me another beautiful year, I dont know what Id do with my life if & when he does die... but for now- I want to celebrate his life & his amazing character.

I Love You Sly & you have been one of the best dogs in my life... Happy Birthday- Wishing you all the best & we hope we get a couple more years :)

Happy 15th Birthday Sly!!